Like sand through the hourglass..

Here's the deal. It's been a long week. As an update, mom didn't get out of the hospital yet. She had some minor setbacks but if all goes well the doctor said she can come home on wednesday.

After getting home from the hospital today I just wanted a distraction. Then, on my TiVo was Days of our lives. If you know me you know I have a bit of a bad addiction with soaps. I watch like 3. I know, I'm not proud of this. I started watching DOOL when I was about 6 years old. My grandma would babysit me and everyday at 2pm we would sit down and watch "our program" as grandma would say it. Now, I know what you are thinking.... yep grandpa watched it too.

Today I was extra excited to watch the show. I have had to sit through ANOTHER baby snatching storyline since JANUARY! These story-lines take WAY to LONG. Today though, the payoff. Sami found out Sydney was hers AND she confronted Nicole about it. During this 45ish minute program I laughed and was so into my soap. I didn't think about the hospital, or the kids fighting with each other, or work drama. Nope, in this moment I was so happy for Sami. I can't wait for EJ to find out next (I really hope they get back together, sorry Rafe).

I know every one of you are rolling your eyes at me right now. But we all have these vices. Things trivial that just get us through. Takes our minds off of ,well, life! Don't we all need an escape sometimes? For some of us it's shopping, others it's golf, reading, movies, video games. As much grief as I get from everyone for watching soaps, today it was just what I needed.

What is going to get me through tomorrow? You guessed it, Biggest Loser!

Picture of the week

What a week

This week has been LONG. I'm tired. I have a cold. I didn't go to work today. Bummer! Tim leaves for the desert tomorrow. It looks like a long weekend ahead. The good news is mom gets out of the hospital on Sunday!! Yeah. Bobby comes down Sunday night. Bummed that Aunt Linda is leaving Sunday morning.

This week has been trying, emotional, and busy. I've missed my kids since I have been either at work, at the hospital, or sick. But I see better days ahead!

Can I tell you how much I love the holidays? Well I do. I asked Tim today if it is too soon for Christmas songs on my blog. He said it was. He also said it was too soon to watch Elf. He is such a downer huh? There is something about the holidays that warm my heart. Put me in a better mood. I love wearing pants and long sleeve shirts. Sometimes I even throw on a scarf and hat. In San Diego it has JUST now started to get cold (cool). I say that yet it was almost 80 degrees yesterday. But I feel sometime soon the air will stay a little crisp.

I know I didn't get to blog about Halloween, mostly because I was too lazy to get the pictures on the computer. I thought I would throw some pictures up now. For some reason I am still not that good at taking pictures with my camera at night. I guess I should look into that. There are a lot of missed moments because of this. Oh well. Here are a few I was able to capture.

Ryan was all about the pose. He really got into the whole superhero theme

B-O-R-E-D at home

They say the bigger the hair the better the sleep...

Noah slept very well during his nap today.

This weekend was pretty non eventful considering we are in the thick of potty training.

I know, it's about time, huh?

Ryan has been doing great except we are

B-O-R-E-D!

It's hard to leave the house in the beginning of potty training.

I had to get creative..FAST.

Here are the weekend highlights

The worst!!

Noah fell right on the corner of the wall, his head got a HUGE knot.

My heart was so sad for him.

We played with water colors (everything in underwear of course)

We gave ottoman rides

Until Noah fell off (ahem, pushed off by his brother)

The boys played with their electronics

Ryan pretended to be a Robot

We made a fun snack.

Actually Ryan made his as Noah napped.

(Don't feel bad for him... remember the hair!)

Then after some coloring and potty time

Ryan helped me with dinner

Dinner was yummy.

All in all a great weekend.

It's fun to just hang out with the kids and find fun things to do.

Dear Ryan

Ryan,

I love you. It seems to have been a rough week for both of us. I know sometimes I yell at you more then I would like to. I’m sorry for that. You are such a kind hearted little person. Sometime (most of the time) when I put you down to sleep and you refuse to stay in bed, well, it makes my blood pressure skyrocket. Or when you pretend to not hear me speak, or you just laugh when I get upset with you.. But I will try to remind myself to allow you to be who you are and love you and parent you in a gentle and calm way. Thank you for being such a great brother to noah. I know you snuck into his crib after bedtime. I heard you both on the monitor laughing together. I pray that I will hear that forever. noah already looks up to you, he is so blessed to have you as a brother. I am so proud to be your mommy you are my heart.

Sleep tight

mommy

Random Picture Friday

The many faces of Noah

and the pretty much the same face of Ryan

Guess what I did yesterday...

went on a date with my husband!

Can you believe it? It was so nice to just be still for 2 hours. Now, let me start by saying we did go to a country concert on Saturday and saw Lady Antebellum and Rodney Atkins. That was different though. Why? Because it was what Tim wanted to do and not really my comfort zone. I'm not really a people person. Although, the music was good, there were a lot of people smoking (ok, EVERYONE was smoking). I digress...

So yesterday I kind of reached a boiling point. I needed away from the house. To be honest, I think my kids needed a fresh face also. I decided not to go to life group (hard decision) but since I already had a babysitter lined up I wanted to just go sit and be still. My awesome husband decided to come with me. We went to a quiet Mexican restaurant, had a bite to eat, and a drink (of course) and just talked. We caught up on life, you know the things that we are to busy to mention during the day too day craze of life.

Best part, when we came home Ryan was in a GREAT mood. It was hard putting him to bed he was so happy with life. Ahhh, so refreshing. We had great bedtime prayers. Ryan did all the praying last night if I tried to pray he would put his hand over my mouth. After prayers Ryan told me God was big and happy. I laughed and told him he was absolutely right.

I started thinking about my day. How I was brought to tears because I was overly emotional over everything that didn't go as planned during my day. God is big. Bigger than my problems, my fears, my sorrows. He is happy. He is happy when we worship Him, we pray to Him, when we TRUST Him! What awesome perspective my three year old gave me last night. What a better day I had today in light of his perspective.

Have I told you lately, I love my guys!!