Monday, November 22, 2010

It's hard to let go

Last night was a hard night. I couldn't sleep. I lie awake in bed tossing and turning knowing God is working on so much in my life and in the lives of people I love.

I got a call last night from my brother. He called to tell me his house was burning. You can read more about it here on his blog. I was stunned and my heart hurt for him and his family. They are all safe and okay but not all of there things are. I sit here crying just thinking about the whole situation. Our family has been through so much this year. We lost mom just short of 3 months ago and now Bobby has to go through this? It doesn't seem right. Bobby and Rachel are the last people you think should have to go through this.

I sit here feeling convicted. I just spent so much time and money putting together my house with "stuff". Everything I have can be taken away in a minute. Bobby and Rachel are so faithful and give so much I feel guilty for what I have.

Now with all this said, I also feel that they are so blessed. I believe in the hard times when you feel broken and tired, and that so much of what you worked hard for is gone in a minute, this is when God is able to do incredible things in our lives. When we have no choice but to have faith in Him and trust that He will provide. Sometimes I feel like I'm on the sidelines watching the game being played. I see Christ followers giving up so much and letting there lives be guided by faith and I sit here in my house with the heater on scared to go outside and be cold.

Bobby is going through a hard time right now but I know in the deepest depth of my heart God has such awesome things in store for his future. I will seek harder to start playing the game better. It's time to brush off the knee pads and come off the bench. Big things are in store. Just wait.

Megan

4 comments:

Sally P-G said...

wow! I am so sorry to hear about your brothers house. It really is amazing how God works but I know that you guys will get through all that life throws your way because your faith is strong and your love for God unyielding.

Linda said...

We have each other and we will hang tough!!!! When one of of us falls the others will always be there to pick us up. Your Mom went through some very tough times and always had the faith to carry on, which she instilled in you and Bobby. I've seen it more than ever these past three months. She was very proud of you guys and so am I.

bobby said...

"I see Christ followers giving up so much and letting there lives be guided by faith and I sit here in my house with the heater on scared to go outside and be cold."

With the heater on, eh? Pun intended? As long as it isn't a floor furnace, you should be OK. Otherwise, it may be safer in the cold! ;)

Love ya Meg-o.

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